I actually forgot to get her a gift this year.
In fact, I actually forget to get her a gift every year.
Except for like two years ago, I got her a teddy bear wearing a shirt with her name on it.
That, was the only birthday gift she received from me in all 14 years of her life.
And she? She's been religiously preparing birthday gifts for me every year. Last year she hinted that she didn't get me anything and I was quite annoyed with her. Oh but she DID get me something. Oh well...
I've just realised how unfair I've been to her, and not just on birthdays.
When she was a baby, she was the unfair one. She liked hitting peoples' heads but for some reason she particularly loved hitting mine. If I'm not wrong it hurt, a lot.
Fortunately from then on, things were smooth sailing. I had close to no friends because of my autism-like problem and she was probably my only friend. We were known to our relatives as 'so good girl why you don't want to learn from them'.
I hardly upload childhood photos with her inside because HAHA I quite jealous of her cuteness. Shh...
But I made an exception.
TADAH!
A solo shot of her being cute
Things turned for the worse when I was in P3. People started being rude and I was the target of verbal bullying. I tried to get friends. But whenever I talked to them they'd attack me with, "So?" "Then?" "And then?" Tsk. Childish.
So one day I decided to let them have a taste of their own medicine. I remember very clearly the first time I did so was in the toilet. I met one of the bullies and she didn't say anything but I kept spamming her with So's and Then's. She gave me a fake smile, the hahaha-I-don't-know-what-to-say-because-I'm-obviously-at-the-lower-hand-so-I'm-just-gonna-smile-at-you smile. She was speechless. Well obviously right? She didn't even say anything before I even tackled her what hahahahha. But I tell you her expression was priceless.
SO? SO I WENT HOME AND PRACTISED IT! On my sister. She was just K2 and was clearly even more speechless. I feel very bad for her now.
Naturally from my So's and Then's I became a meanie. At times I would get violent. I remember she made me angry once and I was so furious, I did the stupidest, most impulsive thing of stepping on her foot with all of my weight. She cried. Another time, I scratched her arm with my fingernails till it bled.
In another few years she managed to catch up though and we would constantly bicker. I would be like, "Eh last time you so good girl now you so rude" because I very bu shuang (not happy) she could answer back. Then she'd reply with, "You also like that what." And that sparked off our conflicting sister-sister relationship in years to come.
But we also learnt to keep each other's secrets. No, actually she learnt to keep my secrets. She hasn't met a single guy all her life. So guaikia, complete opposite of me.
"Eh Weiching, I going out again ah. If Daddy Mummy ask say I never come back at all."
"O_O okay."
You know what annoys me about her? When my headset is on and she interrupts me to talk about... Pokemon.
Over the years I think I was the petty one. She was the one who cried too easily. I also learnt that she's super serious during ballet. Back when I was still dancing my ballet teacher reflected to me that Weiching was uber serious. "I joke with her she also never laugh. Just stare back at me. So scary."
Then I got really confused. I looked at her and went, "I more serious than her."
"Really? But at least you know how to smile."
I didn't really believe it till this year, when my parents had to be consistently in and out of Singapore and I had to fetch Weiching from ballet class. That meant I could sit in and watch her dance. I swear, even though her technique was perfect I couldn't stop laughing at her pokerface. I laugh at people's misery one la aiya.
So... ya. Made me realise that I don't really know her inside out and I should get her a gift this year. Like today, I'm gonna head out at the last minute to get her something. I'll do better next year.
I wasn't the best. I'll be the best now.
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