I'm getting old. Simply cannot afford to sleep late anymore. By 11pm, cannot take it anymore. Fast asleep.

You're not replying my texts nor my calls. I just want to be friends, don't need to patch back. I don't know if
a. You're bearing a grudge
b. You don't know what to say
c. You're not bothered anymore or
d. You're dead.
Are you just like the other guys? The only thing I get of you are dreams.

Aiya. I'm hungry. Feel like heading to Tamp to get food + a diary, cos blogs are not personal enough. Why tamp? No idea.......

EH BTW

Attached days







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Which looks healthier? :)

Wow. I haven't blogged in awhile. Lots of stuff have been happening, dunno where to start

1) I'm officially SINGLE

2) My projects are 9/10 over, just 1 final major project left, and then exams.

3) I never did slash my wrist over this span of time

4) I get tired really easily nowadays, by 1 I'm already dozing off, as compared to pre-single days when I'd sleep at like 4 and wake up at 6 for school

5) MRT door closed on me, my friends managed to run in - for the first time alone in public I screamed. HAHA

6) Queued 3 hours for a haircut

7) Moved to a place with a sea view. Sweee!

After months of going nowhere during brainstorming sessions, we finally came to an idea that we all agree with. My tutor loves it and says he's "totally endorsing" our idea. I owe it all to the inspiration I got from books.

This particular project has constantly been on my mind for a long while, as other groups had already come up with secure ideas, and we, we had nothing. Hence, when I'm really really stuck, I'd go to the library to look for inspiration. During this period of time I have grown to love local reads. One day I chanced upon this book and I knew this was it.

All that thinking has finally paid off. That feeling of assurance is relieving and incredible. It is so incredible I am going to put my entire heart in it, cos I know this is going to be the most difficult module yet. I love challenges. And I really hope the Sentosa board would love and approve of this idea, I might be too hopeful but it'd be great if they implement it. It would be such an honour for me. It would mark a beautiful new beginning for me. It would make my life.

But if otherwise, no regrets! Fingers crossed!

Today I cried like mad. Even though it's no one's fault.

The lack of sleep is making me depressed.
Very depressed.

Looking back, which guy friend has truly been there for me... as a friend?

I remember clearly I was crying over some guy and confided in another. And he told me,
"You're a good girl. If I weren't attached I would have protected you"
"All you guys say the same thing, that I'm a good girl then try to have my body"
And then I burst into tears.

And then there was this very learned man. He would say stuff like "Meet me at the hotel and I'll help you with your socio homework"
I managed to get help for my socio homework without getting into a fling tho.

I have this guy friend that I had a brief romance with, and right now we still go to each other for advice. Recently he's had a relationship issue and came to me for help. I don't know about him but I actually feel more comfortable now, as compared to pre-fling.

Some people I met are still friends with me now that the feelings are gone.

So how? How do you establish a normal friendship with a straight person of the opposite gender without going into anything first?

Skin